paalam

It’s funny how very happy memories cause you (particularly me) pain in the heart. Without being aware of it, suddenly you were changed, again. Your emotions were being filled up with feelings that used to make you happy but tonight, it does not. It does the opposite. It makes you sad, devastatingly sad. And all you can do is let the tears slide from your eyes onto the pillows. Feelings that you’ve hold on to and fought for in the past. A feeling that used to make you smile with just looking to the horizon. A feeling of entirety even when going home alone from back then. A feeling that you (I still) hopes to last till your last breath. But now, it kills you. This feeling is causing you pain. A feeling that squeezes your heart when you see that someone who caused it all. A feeling that wakes you up for another day to suffer. A feeling that make you long for something. A feeling that makes you more than depressed. A feeling that makes you dissatisfied. A feeling that only God can cure. A feeling God does not want you to feel. A feeling He will erase every time you feel it. A feeling that He will heal. A feeling that will be replaced with His everlasting love. Then a new feeling will rise… and you will never dare to let it go again.

bagong ligo

hehehe muli ay bagong ligo nanaman ang computer ko.. at sa mga unang araw nito ay para lamang syang isang napakalaking mp4 na kailangang i-plug para gumana.. Walang games, wala pang masyadong pictures para pagexperementuhan.. kaya mas pinili kong magbasa ng halos maghapon kesa mag-solitaire lamang o maglaro ng freecell at kumonsumo ng kuryente, tulad ng ginagawa ko ngayong madaling araw..

kahit na hindi ko masyadong kabisado ang lyrics ng kantang Beauty and Madness ni Fra Lippo Lippi ay walang palya nitong kinukurot ang aking puso sa pamamagitang ng himig nito.. hehehe..

bigla ko tuloy napansin, na kapag titignan mo yung drive c mo eh naka-ngiti pero yung drive d, nakasimangot.. siguro sinadya yun ng nagibento ng computer.. hehehe baliw?.. maghapon na kasing si Dan Brown ang kausap ko eh, tas tulog, kain, kaya tumataas ang body fat index at body fat mass ko, noong nakalipas na term, normal lang ang estado ko, noong wednesday, tuluyan nang napatunayan na "Tumataba na talaga ako.." kamoteng katotohanan yan, kelangan nang magbago, kumilos para di tuluyang magaya sa mga causcasian na karamihan ay obese (parang si roel dati.. joke).. endure.. sana makayanan kong bumalik pa sa dati kong itsura.. hehhe... tomguts na naman ako pero kunwari lang ako na di ko to pinapansin, sa totoo lang tinatamad lang akong kumain (lalo na ngayong alas dos y medya ng madaling araw..) so yun lang.. hehehe

BGM: the yes yes show, parokya ni edgar feat. Francis Magalona.