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Friday, June 17, 2022

Yep, I was depressed



The photo on the left is me last December 2020,
Unemployed
Dealing with anxiety and depression
Fat
Burden
Vulnerable


On the right  was taken around March-April 2022
After doing Intermittent Fasting and Low Carb Diet for about a year
As I type this message, I can say that anxiety is lingering again.

I don't know what to say. 

Life is a gift; it is hard, yet worthwhile.

I suddenly stumble on the my 2020 photo, and felt what I have been feeling at the moment I recorded that. 

The weight, the sadness, the blurriness, though I'm with my family at that time. And it was Christmas Season.

The Lord is good, as He's been carrying me all this time. It was hard, but as I looked in the past, I was able to make some progress. 

I will not take that away.

I'm not making sense now. I cant see any direction of my message. I know.

That is how confused my mind just now. 

I'm Okay, just getting by. Please worry not.













Tuesday, May 10, 2022

My sentiments on the 2022 Presidential Elections

 Hi,


This is SMA, writing again.


So the most recent Presidential elections is almost over, and with 98.05% of votes that come in, here's the partially/unofficial results.


Yes, I'm devastated. 

I'm not happy because Leni (whom I voted for) did not win.

I did not vote for her to defeat BBM. 

Not for the hype, but because of hope.

Hope.
 
Hope, that finally, the Philippines will have a chance to experience what good governance is;
that we can have a leader who really thinks of its citizens first, before themselves;
that we (and our future kids) can have a chance of a better future;
and that at least once, we can really say "We stand for what is right, and we've won".

Sadly, Looks like majority of us did not learn from what had happened from the last 6 years.

Last 2016 elections, I voted for DU30, also with a hope.

Hoping that he will not become like other politicians who run politics for their own good.
I was so wrong, so I need to make better choices.

Not only I, but We.


6 years is a short time, but a lot of things can happen within that short time. 

Within the next 6 years, I will probably have my first child. 

I want him/her to have a wonderful future. 
I want him/her to have good education
I want him/her to have freedom to experience and do things.

These next few years will determine the life of our kiddos.

Some people say that "If you are not lazy, you will have a comfortable life." and
"You don't have to depend on the government for your own living if you are not lazy".

For the people who say this, you are blessed, and I'm hoping that they do not experience being unemployed, going through depression for getting rejected from multiple job applications. 
I hope that they always have food on their plate.
I hope the don't get sick and worry about money when they need to buy medicines. 

People are working their asses off, yet still be poor.
Our farmers most probably wakes up before sunrise, and go to bed late, working for more than 12 hours a day. And just eat root crops to save money.
People in the metro will definitely decline working above 8 hours daily even if paid overtime.

Filipino's want to do this farming jobs overseas because it pays more.


I saw that Leni had the initiative to make positive changes for the country. 

She was the previous Vice President of the country, and while on pandemic, she was able to get assistance, mobilize and help to our people.

She was able to do a lot, with limited things at hand. What else of she have more. 

She was able to spread positive characteristics to people around her. 


I voted for Leni for a better future, for a better Philippines.
For my parents to be comfortable, for the future generation, for us.

I'm devastated because I feel that it was stolen form us.
That we will have to suffer another 6 years before getting another change of getting a bright future.
Even after this 6 years, I can't imagine what will be left for us, which worries me more.

If you can read this, BBM supporters, I know you are happy your candidate won.
But are you happy for the Philippines?

If I'm wrong, please educate me.

Yes, it was too early to say things. But what can I do?
We cannot stop democracy, where the majority leads.

Let us all pray for our country. 
That the Lord keep an eye on us, and hear us.

I still have a spark of hope in my heart.
The Hope and Faith within me will not die.

I hope that he (BBM) will do what he promised to improve the Philippines (I've not heard anything clear so far).

The 20 pesos rice is to far from reality. But let us see if he can do it.

Let us observe on what he can and will accomplish for the next 3, 6 and 12 months.

Then let us blog again.

Saturday, July 4, 2020

7 years asleep

Yow! 

So it has been 7 years since my last post. 

One reason is, aside from the fact that i dont have the means to go online, sit, and make a blog post, is I have been waiting for google to create a Blogger app. They do have just now, but it still needs LOTS of improvement!

Btw, its already 2020. Bloggers nowadays are widely known as Vloggers. Both with the liking to provide information and entertainment (some are just entertainment, blah!) but the later is using different media, videos. People are now calling Vloggers as Bloggers, but I beg to differ. Just because. Haha! Well, as I just recently remembered, we are also doing some documentary series in the past, that was almost vlogging-ish. So yeah.

Im hoping that I could still continune writting in this blog starting today, and in english, if possible, to reach a wider audience. 

Disclaimer: I'm not an english major and english is not my first language, so you may see lots of errors on my grammar, tenses, etc. Please let it go (and inform me so I can edit it and I will grow :D)

Image captured from Netflix series: Dark. But its irrelevant to this post. 

What actually initiated me to write again is because these days, there are lots of 'Influencers' showing up. Most of them creating a vlog, or a Twitter/Instagram post as a medium. 
Well, lot's has changed in the past 7 years. And if I had a kid just after writing my last post, that kid should be 7 by this year. That would be a grade schooler!
What Im trying to say, is that kids then were teenagers now, and most of them watches or "follow" these online personalities or Influencers, which could affect their personality, positively or negatively.

I have no ill will against online influencers. What I think is, if you consider to be one, you have a great responsibility to your followers. You have a way to put a seed in their minds and hearts. Please, let that seed grow positively to affect later generations and other people.

With these lots of influencers around, we bend to their beliefs and imitate their actions. In how I see it, following many influencers is like accepting their opinions to guide your life. What we may end up is, us not having our own personality, hence we would have difficulty understanding who we really are. Yeah, you may disagree with me, no worries, I understand. 

We can choose any online personalities that we like to follow. But I would like to suggest to please, choose the ones that will make you a better person.

If you want to become one of these online influencers, be sure to have content to make you followers a better version of themselves. They deserve it since you will not get paid much without them.

So yeah. These were also just my opinion. Its always up to you how will you receive it.

I know, this is not a very good and appropriate post after a 7 year hiatus, since there is no update from myself whatsoever. But it will make sure to have one if im not to lazy write, in the next few days? Weeks? Months? Hehe. Lets see.

If you are reading this far, I appreciate you time. I'll be more happy if you leave a comment.

God bless us all!

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Bangong bihis?

Di ko alam kung papalitan ko pa ng layout tong blog ko o wala lang talaga akong oras.. hehehe

Let's see.. :D

Monday, April 22, 2013

dahil sa wala kong magawa..

Original Post came from Facebook. :
sabi ko, ibablog ko yung mga napagisipan ko haban gumagawa ako ng walang kwentang bagay. pede na siguro dito.. ito yung mga yun:
- matagal na pala akong single
- bakit kaya ako single?
- ah, kase wala akong nililigawan (‘landi landi din kase pag may time’- sabi ni ms. charm, kaso walang time eh, sagot ko)
- pero may crush naman ako
- pero, hanggang ngayon, torpe parin ako
- di na uso torpe ngayon, kilos dude!
- pero okay na kong makita syang nakangiti
- sigurado ako, di lang ako ang natutuwa kapag nakikita syang nakangiti, baka yung ibang yun, napaplano kung pano nila sya mapapangiti, baka maunahan ka naman
- konting tyempo pa
- yan ka namaman sa tyempo mo eh
- kumilos din naman ako nung last time ah, kaso di mo talaga mapipilit ang taong iba talaga ang gusto
- okay
- okay ka dyan, kunin mo na number!
- anong oras na eh, baka mgmukha akong stalker
- nagkabaligtad ata tayo ah
- yaan mo na
ayun! kelan kaya ako kikilos?